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Volunteering…

Speaking in front of a crowd is not my idea of fun…Sometimes I get nervous speaking at bible study, sometimes so nervous I get all lost in what I am saying I lose my point…Parties make me nervous before attending…

So why am I writing this?

When I started my relationship with God, my life changed drastically…things I thought I could never get away from were gone…and eventually my life became something I never thought it could be before pursuing this relationship…

full of joy…

Ever since these changes occurred in my life I have felt that I wanted to share this joy and speak of what God is continuing to teach me…I didn’t know what exactly this chance to share would look like, and over the years it has come about in different ways always in a small group setting…but about a year ago I started thinking about what my sharing would look like on a bigger scale, like maybe leading a bible study…and I started praying…

Someone once asked me to speak to a group of women…I really thought that God would make it abundantly, like a calling, clear to me if I was supposed to do it…I told them I would pray about it and see if I felt God wanted me to share…I prayed about it, and thought maybe, but eventually my fear won out or I didn’t hear the call and I declined the invitation…this bothered me as I feel I have something to share, but I was confused as to why I didn’t feel called by God to do it…

Then this Christmas I was asked to share an essay, and I just said yes…ironically it was on something that I was exploring with God already, so why not share it…I really thought nothing of it…I was nervous but it went well…I think that was a preparation…I have now been asked to give a sermon…

Again, I told our Pastor I would pray about it, and see if I thought God wanted me to do it…I think again expecting that God would give me some clear sign as to whether or not He wanted me to share…But as I was meditating on this waiting for the call so to speak, I read this written on a friend’s blog…and what stuck out to me were the thoughts on volunteering to do God’s work vs. being called to do God’s work…so here you go, I can’t tell you I felt called to prepare a sermon and speak in front of my church, but I can tell you that God has been doing amazing things in my life and I am volunteering to speak on it…so I ask you this…

Please pray with me that God will give me the words, the wisdom, and the peace to speak to our congregation, that what comes out of my mouth will be truly from Him, and that I will not have my own agenda…Pray that my fear would not get in the way of volunteering myself for God’s work…

Thank You

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