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Let Go…

Not Let’s Go…Let Go…As in, learn a lesson my dear daughter, something I have been trying to teach you FOREVER…ok I adlibbed a bit there…but in today there was the unmistakable feeling that in the circumstances my heart had something to learn from my God…

I had plans for today…lists of errands to accomplish, money to deposit, money to spend, things to get done, for thanksgiving, Christmas, and just for life…you know your typical Type A person’s Tuesday…Ironically we were all dressed and ready to get out the door pretty early…I had talked to Beth, she suggested I bring Holden over for playtime while I ran around,. so I only had to get one kid in and out…Holden was ESTATIC to spend the day with MJ…So I grabbed my lists and we went to load the car…
I grabbed the hatch, it opened without even needing to be released…”Oh no, not again” I thought…SO I say to Holden, “don’t climb in yet let me make sure the car works”…you see we have had a couple instances where doors didn’t get closed or lights were left on and after strapping in the kids I find that the battery is dead…sure enough the battery WAS DEAD…
Ugh, all of the sudden I was encased in a BAD ATTITUDE and I felt I couldn’t get out of it…I called my mom, and she told me to SLOW down, listen to what God was saying and spend some time with my boys not trying to get ANYTHING done (so foreign to me)  OH did I mention Holden was in near hysterics that he couldn’t go see MJ and she couldn’t come to us because their car is in the shop!  TRAPPED thats how I felt…so listening to my mom I got off the phone and prayed…I knew Holden wanted a playmate, not a mom who was trying to clean, etc…BUT you see friends were coming over later for a playdate, and well the house was how we live in it not how I LET people see it…
I really felt a tug that I NEEDED to be my son’s playmate today and let everything else go…SO I canceled the playdate, so I didn’t have to clean…I put Daniel down for his morning nap, and I made hot cocoa with Holden to go in our new special Christmas mugs, we made new playdough, blue per his request, and then we sat down and played with it…making noodles, frosting, ice cream, and other food items…
Soon I got a call from Josh saying he had time to stop by and give my car a jump…I immediately begin plotting…OK he comes by, I head to Beth’s with my recipe…the kiddos help us bake then I leave Holden with them, and run my million errands, DONE!  No day was wasted and I played with my son!  SO we have lunch, we play…all while waiting for Josh…the hours tick by, so I finally decide Holden should rest before we go…a couple hours later I realize Josh isn’t coming(he got tied up with work…) Oh well I think I had a great day no worries…
A little before 4 the doorbell rings…as I am walking to the door I see my friend outside, she didn’t get the message about the playdate cancel!  FEAR in my heart!  Oh no!  My house is a mess!  What will she think!  How can I let her in!  God whispered, “let it go…it’s not important”  I let her in:-)  And preceded to have a great visit, and a wonderful surprise in that yeah my house wasn’t as it usually is for guests but that isn’t what matters, what is awesome is God provided a friend on a day when I needed to let it go and just be…and it was good.  I needed her visit, I needed the time with my sons, I needed to forget about my todo list for a day…
So tonight I thank God for the many blessings in my life…For my family, who I love to spend time with…My oldest son who constantly makes me smile, and amazes me with his mind…My youngest who is becoming more engaging everyday, who is thriving and learning new things, as well as teaching me new things daily…for my husband who ROCKS!  For my friends, especially those who God uses to gently teach me what is important…For a great day, despite, lack of sleep and changing of plans!  I hope I remember this tomorrow, when I will be tempted to cross off as many todos as possible, and might miss an improtant opportunity to just live and be with the people in my life…
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  • November 27, 2009 - 10:19 pm

    Amanda Lomonaco - Like!<br /><br />Great post, Anna. I love that you take the time to share what God is teaching you!ReplyCancel

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